Hey haven’t been on here a lot cause I have been podcasting and posting a lot on the DJ blog so if you not following that, get on it suckers :)
Old School Quick Mix #1 (by djjaybishop)
Been a minute. Trying to get my creative ass in gear and put some work in but life is goin HAM on my black ass. I struggle so much with the chasm between my creative mind. lazy body, and depressed soul. my God I want to write, make music, make movies, DJ, produce. How in the FUCK am I gonna manage to do all that shit AND handle a 9 to 5 and be a 24 hour husband and father. I know there are dudes that handle it but I ain’t Will fuckin Smith.
I just wish I could just stop feeling so out of sync sometimes. there are things I need to do that I don’t cause I am my own worst enemy. My brain often operates against me. Self sabotage. so fucked up.
I so need to train myself to become void of emotion. Stop acknowledging these feelings.
anyway enough being an emo bitch. got ideas I need to spring.
For those who like dark beers, this is on point
A little itch
sooooo, trying to get my self together and get moving on becoming a mobile DJ. I got my equipment game in order so now I just have to get my hustle right. Probably gonna start another blog that will host mixes and DJ videos and the like. Praying that this combined with some other lifestyle changes really gets me moving in a positive direction both financial and spiritual wise. I have been playing with my diet. I reduced the amount of meat I eat to almost nil minus fish. Just about completely cut out red meat. I have cut out hard liquor. Damn, no more cognac :( Trying to get my beer and wine consumption down but I need some kinda release. I have cut video games from my daily routine. Too time consuming. I gotta step my manhood game up in order to keep my life and wife sane. It’s hard to change years of bad habits though. Hard to change a negative mindset to a positive one. Hard to go from being an idea man to an execution man. pray for me